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Already DeadI sit on the ground,
And steady my head.
It doesn't really matter.
I'm already dead.

I turn my arm up,
About to begin.
The voices are silenced
As the blade digs in.

First there's a pinch
Then the blood starts to explore.
Forming little red beads,
It soon starts to pour.

I laugh at the sight.
My arm starts to burn.
The monsters inside are dying,
And they start to squirm.

The feeling goes away.
There's a pounding in my head.
There's no hope for me.
I'm already dead.

Just Another ScarI deserve it.
Every single infliction.
Every single slit.
My secret addiction.

Worthless.
I'm trapped, wanting to be free,
My flaws, my helplessness,
Nothing's good in me.

I'm a bad person.
I don't try to be.
But everything just seems to worsen,
I'm a failure, can't you see?

Blade against skin,
Blood against wrist.
The cut ever so thin.
Tears I must resist.

A bit too deep, I've gone too far.
Another sin confessed.
It's just another scar.
Just another scar to add to the rest.

How are you?"Hey! How are you?"

I'm bad,
Tired,
Hurt,
Depressed,
Alone,
Stressed,
Regretful,
Disconcerting,
Frozen to the core,
Broken,
Ready to cry some more,
Lonely,
Crushed,
Cold,
Life is just rushed...
Defeated,
In so much pain,
Feeling cheated,
Life has no gain,
Not good enough,
Worthless,
Life is just so rough,
A failure,
No one could care less,
Sorry for complaining so much,
Sorry for being selfish and such,

"I'm fine, thanks for asking! And how are you?"

Darkest Nights"Darkest Nights"

I'm looking out the window
Through the blinds and the shades
Waiting patiently for your return
But you won't be coming home today

Meanwhile these shadows
Continue haunting me
They've tried to snatch my soul
And bury it in the deep

Because the sun has gone down
This room has grown black
But it seems darker than normal
I want the light to come back

In fact this room is so dark
My body is starting to tremble
The shadows are reaching out
My nerves may disassemble

The absence of light
Enhances the echos of sound
I'm finding strength in silence
As I sink into the ground

So instead I close my eyes
Pretending I'm not here
Or r

BrokenForget the hopes that shattered,
In the midst of your despair.
Forget the world that mattered,
To the people who seem to "care".

Regret the actions you've taken,
And wish for an endless lie.
Regret the souls you have shaken,
When your heart of black did cry.

Weep for the hopeful,
And hopeless.

Forget the world that shattered
You into a million pieces.
Forget the hope that prospered,
Somehow in the creases.

Regret the souls you took away,
Dream for everlasting guilt.
Regret the actions you may
Have inflicted to the world you built.

Weep for the loved,
And loveless.

The Worst Thing...

The worst thing she can say is no.
But it's not what she says…
It's what she feels.
I can sense our friendship growing apart…
Slowly breaking apart.
Nothing will be the same…
There won't be any more hugs
No more laughing together in class
No more smiles shot from across the class
No more friendship
Nothing will be the same.
The worst thing she can say is no
But it's not the worst thing she can do.

Girl with the ScarsI am the happy one, who likes to have fun.

I am the hyper, crazy one, who might randomly laugh.

I am the defiant one, who would never follow the rules.

I am the one with the scars and their secrets.

I am the messed up one, who thinks no one cares.

I am the helpless one, who can’t change her past.

I am the hurt one, but much more hurt on the inside.

I am the one with the scars, and their angry message is a reminder of my weakness.

I am the strong one, who is determined to survive.

I am the dreamer, who imagines a different life, imagines a time when pain was only a distant memory.

I am the childlike one, who remembers when ther

Do you see me?Don't you see me?

You see the mask,
Never bother to ask
How I really feel.

You see the scars,
Look at them with disgust.
Never asking if I'm okay.

You see the sadness,
Confuse it with the madness.
And call me crazy.

You see the anger,
Mix it with danger.
And run away from me.

You see what's on the outside,
But not the inside.
So you don't really see me.

You Don't Know MeYou see that I listen.

You see that I do what others want.

But you don’t know me

You would know me if …

You knew how hard it was to pretend to be someone I'm not.

You knew how I feel sometimes that no one cares.

You knew how I was abused.

You see that I swear.

You see that I cry.

But you don’t know me

You would know me if …

You knew how I hide myself from others.

You knew how I cut to hide the pain.

You knew how I pretend to be happy.

You Don't Know Me

Hunchback"Hunchback"

So much that I've done wrong
Always believing it's bad to be me
That I'll never amount to anything
Despite what I've already achieved

So much I can't control
No matter what cards I'm dealt
If I'm a product of my environment
Then why do I blame myself?

So much negativity
Was throw in my direction
It's no wonder I frown
On my unworthy reflection

So what if I've made mistakes?
That only shows I'm imperfect
Show me one human who's divine
And I'll shake his hand with respect

Still when darkness falls
And I sit here in the cold
i know I could do so much better
I know I can be so much more

One day, I'll show them
Everyone who laugh

SuicideThe spiderwebs slowly grow to the edge.
Oh how I wish I was dead.
I'll never be enough,
So I've given up.

I'm so done with my pathetic existence.
I've committed too many sins to consider repentance.
If it were possible, I wouldn't try.
My only goal in life is to die.

I look over the edge to the riverside.
My only option is suicide.
It could all end there.
No one would even care.

So I sit and I wonder,
But this is the only option I ponder.
This feels so right.
Tonight is the night.

I lean towards the edge, and climb over.
This is the only way to obtain closure.
I hope this is the way to end it.
Falling through the air, I feel sp

My Mother Shot Me In The HeadMy mother shot me in the head
Shut me from the world outside
Snatched the dreams right from my bed
And stole away my mind's bright light

My mother shot me in the legs
To stop my falling if I ran
"Prevent your evil to seed", she said,
By keeping me rooted like a plant

My mother shot me in the heart
Stopped the depth and passion's flow
Tried to take my one true love
For reasons that I'll never know

My mother shot me thrice today
My being's trinity took a toll
Yet here I am, though tears have stained,
As she could never shoot my soul

Every time I look at you, my heart breaks
I feel like crying, but the tears just won't come.
When you look at me, your eyes wander…
You can't see me.
I'm a ghost…
Lost
Scared
Confused
I need you…
But you don't need me
When I walk away,
You don't even notice…
That I've been there…
The whole time.
I want to say that I love you…
But I can't be sure if it's true,
When you won't even look me in the eyes
Maybe I could call it lust…
Yet still I cannot tell…
When you feel nothing
For me.

PainWords unspoken
Kept inside
Heart once broken
Eyes wide open

Emotions gone
No more feelings
Stuck alone
Always grieving

Pretty messed up
Pain forever
It won't stop
Will it ever?

I'm empty without youI'm empty without you.
You're a piece of me,
And always will be.

I was whole
When you were here,
But you're no longer near.

The memories,
They shined liked a gem.
Now I can't escape them.

You left,
Why?
I can no longer cry.

All my tears are gone.
Dried up from so much crying.
I am no longer trying.

I am empty without you.
You took a piece of me
When you left.

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Perfectly YouSee that blemish on your face,
Everyone tells you to erase,
While you're on the brink,
That blemish is your own grace.

See that bend in your stance,
Noticeable with just one glance,
Heal it, they say,
Make it go away,
But you carry in with your prance.

See that frizz in your hair,
The one that makes people stare,
"look at that awful mane,
Walking around she looks insane!"
But this is the only style you can bear.

See the extra fat in your thighs,
Where all the food you eat lies,
They tell you to lose that weight,
Then you'll start to look great,
but here you're content with your size.

See the strength that you have within,

BrokenForget the hopes that shattered,
In the midst of your despair.
Forget the world that mattered,
To the people who seem to "care".

Regret the actions you've taken,
And wish for an endless lie.
Regret the souls you have shaken,
When your heart of black did cry.

Weep for the hopeful,
And hopeless.

Forget the world that shattered
You into a million pieces.
Forget the hope that prospered,
Somehow in the creases.

Regret the souls you took away,
Dream for everlasting guilt.
Regret the actions you may
Have inflicted to the world you built.

Weep for the loved,
And loveless.

Just Another ScarI deserve it.
Every single infliction.
Every single slit.
My secret addiction.

Worthless.
I'm trapped, wanting to be free,
My flaws, my helplessness,
Nothing's good in me.

I'm a bad person.
I don't try to be.
But everything just seems to worsen,
I'm a failure, can't you see?

Blade against skin,
Blood against wrist.
The cut ever so thin.
Tears I must resist.

A bit too deep, I've gone too far.
Another sin confessed.
It's just another scar.
Just another scar to add to the rest.

How are you?"Hey! How are you?"

I'm bad,
Tired,
Hurt,
Depressed,
Alone,
Stressed,
Regretful,
Disconcerting,
Frozen to the core,
Broken,
Ready to cry some more,
Lonely,
Crushed,
Cold,
Life is just rushed...
Defeated,
In so much pain,
Feeling cheated,
Life has no gain,
Not good enough,
Worthless,
Life is just so rough,
A failure,
No one could care less,
Sorry for complaining so much,
Sorry for being selfish and such,

"I'm fine, thanks for asking! And how are you?"

Already DeadI sit on the ground,
And steady my head.
It doesn't really matter.
I'm already dead.

I turn my arm up,
About to begin.
The voices are silenced
As the blade digs in.

First there's a pinch
Then the blood starts to explore.
Forming little red beads,
It soon starts to pour.

I laugh at the sight.
My arm starts to burn.
The monsters inside are dying,
And they start to squirm.

The feeling goes away.
There's a pounding in my head.
There's no hope for me.
I'm already dead.

SilenceThere is no doubt she's coming for me.
The eerie silence is deafening.
Her footsteps,loud, drawing near,
I muffle my cries.
I run off into the blood red dawn.
I feel her presence.
I can feel her dreaming of me,
Falling to my death.

She finds me,
Coming closer.
Inside my head
I'm screaming nd trying to run.
I find myself frozen in place.
She draws a knife,
Piercing into my side.
She kills me slowly, letting the blood drip.
My feet, soaking in blood,
I begin to fall onto the cold ground.
Immense pain clouds my thoughts.

Suddenly, I'm staring into a mirror.
There is a girl clutching a knife
Her eyes meet mine,
They

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If I Died

by ~thechosenonee1, Nov 20, 2012, 9:30:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

What would you do if I died tomorrow?
Would you sit there and weep and sorrow?
Would you simply waste away the day?
Or would you tell yourself it would be okay?
Would you hold a picture of me close to your chest?
Or would you come and see me to pay your respect?
Would you listen to a song that brought me to mind?
Or would you go out and comit a crime?
Would you try your best to go on with life?
Or in grief, slit your wrist with a knife?
Would you light a candle every year on the day I died?
Or would you simply say "I miss you, and I wish you were here by my side"?

If I Diedby ~thechosenonee1

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

©2012-2013 ~thechosenonee1

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~Freezingsteelmurder Dec 12, 2012 Student General Artist

id do, what you said you would.

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~thechosenonee1 Dec 14, 2012 Student Writer

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~xXF0r3v3rXx Dec 12, 2012

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~thechosenonee1 Dec 14, 2012 Student Writer

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~xXF0r3v3rXx Dec 15, 2012

*virtual slap*

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~thechosenonee1 Dec 16, 2012 Student Writer

*virtual murder while messin up ur hair*

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~xXF0r3v3rXx Dec 16, 2012

😶 *stalks you while living in you're closet and only comes out at night to plan how I will snipe you're kidney*

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~thechosenonee1 Dec 16, 2012 Student Writer

Bitch please. We all know that I will stalk u while u stalk Gerard Way. (: and I'll snipe ur kidney

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~xXF0r3v3rXx Dec 16, 2012

Yes... But ima ninja assassin so you die first

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~thechosenonee1 Dec 16, 2012 Student Writer

Well I'm a Samnincorn assassin so u die first%uD83D%uDE0F

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